3 years ago today....

......I woke up and said, "Happy 3 month birthday" to my baby girl, Ashtyn

......Jeremy disapeared shortly after coffee

........I burned a CD of music for the DJ to play

........and then forced my sister and friends who were at my house to listen to it

........My sister started "dolling" me up

.......and I fought back tears as it started to rain

......I drove to my soon-to-be aunt and unlce's house

.......fought back more tears as the rain didn't stop

......put on a beautiful white gown and tried to calm myself

.......realized I forgot to pick flowers for my brides maids

..........and forgot/lost my leg garter thingy

.......argued with everyone about how I was going barefoot

........I was talked into wearing shoes

.....they were sneakers......white, with fake diamonds along the tops (super wedding shoes)

......the music played and I watched my friends start their journey to the field

.....then my song came on and my father had to practically carry me

.......I, shaking the entire way, finally made it to my final location as a "single" person

....I choked and stumbled over whatever it was I said at that archway

.....I know at the end of it I said "I do" and he " I do'd" too

....and we left that arch together

..... to face the crazy crowd of family and friends

.....and forever

......and so far we've managed to not kill each other........