So now what?

My Mom and Dave came down to snag Ashtyn for the weekend and left 20 minutes ago. I'm already bored and can't figure out what to do with myself. Taylor's still hanging out with me but she doesn't require as much work as Ashtyn does. I'm so used to my 24/7 mommy-hood, that I don't know what to do when I'm short a child or both. Last night my parents watched both of the girls so Jeremy and I could have some much needed time away..... we haven't been alone together since our fakie honeymoon back in April of 2007.... and I was completely at a loss when we had to figure out what to do. This was my second night out since Ashtyn was born and all I could think of was "what are the kids doing right now?" I whine and carry on about how I want to have a few hours away to do something..... anything..... and then it finally happens and I have no idea what to do. I'm lost without my babies. Its insane. It might have been a different story if it was warm out and daytime, then I could have ridden my Harley.... that's always enjoyable, but a night out...... I hate the bar, and I'm too poor to enjoy it, same with dinner at a restaurant. Why spend 50 bucks to eat something I could have made at home for $4? Last night was kind of an eye opener of how my priorities have changed so much since having Ashtyn. And as much as I still hate spending countless hours at home, I'd really rather do that than do whatever it was I used to do before them. I've turned into a hermit against my will. I only enjoy being out if its with my kids. Playgroups, the beach, the pool, wherever as long as I've got Ashtyn and Taylor by my side. Even when Ashtyn is being absolutely unbearable, I'd rather be with her, than not. 10 years ago, I didn't want kids....and now look at me, I have forgotten how to live and function without them. I'm offically a complete sap.